So I heard this song last week, and now I can't stop playing it. I'm addicted. I love it. Over half the lyrics describe my recent situation perfectly. Basically, I've had a bit of ex boyfriend drama. Maybe it was partly my fault. I couldn't just let go. But I also can't stand to just let something go without putting some effort to making amends and working something out.
When I asked the guy what we were, he said we weren't friends. At all. Period. And I'm standing there feeling kicked in the stomach, hurt beyond belief, and trying to deny the fact that I'm wasting precious time on him when I honestly just need to stop and forget it. I'm a girl, I was angry... I barely made it into the hallway and out of most of the flood of kids before I just broke down. Thank goodness my first period is crammed with friends, and all I do is either work on my yearbook pages or play on Pinterest, and I always have music playing.
This song, among others, was my first choice for just facing it and listening to mood fitting music.
"Once upon a time,
a few mistakes ago,
you got me in your sights, you got me alone"
Yeah, basically.
"Pretend he doesn't know
that he's the reason why you're
drowning, drowning, drowning."
BAM. Those lines, right there. I know he knows how hurt I was.
The awesome thing is that now I don't care. I've finally accepted and moved on, and if he comes crawling back... well, I'll give him a good piece of my mind. I reminded myself that I move in pretty much 2 weeks... I shouldn't bother with him, even if that means not smacking him like I wanted to yesterday.
I just needed to rant.
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